Today has been really hard. All day i've been attacked by feelings of inadequacy, hopelessness, fear, depression. I feel useless and stupid and a waste. A drain on everyone around me. Then I rally a bit and remember , no, thats not true. So everything isn't perfect down here. So we don't have a booming outreach house going yet. So we only get out 3-4 times a week to minister (which is quite a big deal with 2 kids and one in my belly.) We've faced some incredible setbacks already and we've only been here 3 and a half months. I just feel so small in stature compared to the ministries greats'- Leilah, Cate, Scott, etc- I could go on and on. Nathan and I are such great support people, its hard being the pioneers down here. And with him having to work full-time, I'm alone. We had such a great house- location wise, at least. But it soured so quick- before it even had a chance to take root. I'm praying for a house that is central, that people can come to day and night and feel loved. We need some apostles and prophets and evangelists down here. Leilah, where are you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you were only here to bring them, i would feed them