I have a new doula client. Her name is Debbie. I met her through my business card, and her therapist, who was calling to pre-screen doulas for her. She needed that buffer because she doesn't know when her baby is going to die. She was diagnosed with trisomy 18, and life expectancy is at a very small percentage-and the ones who do survive are severely handicapped. I am still shell-shocked, i think, and haven't had time to fully let the weight of this hit me. Life is so busy, and it's so important that I just be focused on serving Debbie and her needs, i have been keeping a tight rein on myself. But the tears threaten to overwhelm at the oddest moments. This lady is so brave, so loving and accepting of what God has given her. She wakes up every morning thanking Him for another day with her baby. This will be her first and last pregnancy-she is almost at the age for menopause. I can't even put into words how that rips at my soul. She's been through a lot-intense pressure to abort, a divorce, her dog died; and she is now living in a maternity home. I am writing this to beg anyone who reads this to seriously pray for this lady-to join me in praying that God would miraculously heal her baby. Thankfulness really is a state of the heart, not of situation.