A Thankful Heart

I have this fear. A fear of waste. Wasting life. Wasting the gifts God has given me. I'm so afraid of taking anything I have for granted. I have so many wonderful gifts from the Lord in my life. I guess it goes along with one of my greatest struggles. I struggle sometimes against being bitter and ungrateful. And thats' where my fear lies. I fear not honoring God with all my heart and mind by being ungrateful or just plain thoughtless. I fear not fully appreciating my children, every precious second I've been given with them. I fear not fully loving people or a situation God has put me in by being bitter and not thankful for everything He has given me. I've really had to cultivate a watchful and open heart. I pray that my mind is alert to the things of God, and I pray that He would cultivate a right spirit and mind in me every day for the rest of my life.
There's this great song that when ever I hear it, I pray that He will change me so I can sing it in all honesty.

Blessed Be Your Name

Blessed be your name in the Land that is plentiful
Where your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be your Name when I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in
still I will say

Blessed be the Name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the Name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious Name

Blessed be your Name when the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your Name
Blessed be your Name on the road marked with suffering
though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Blessed be your Name


It's how I act when things are hard that really reveal my heart. I've been passing trials easier and easier the more I walk with Him, but I long for the day when my heart will be perfect within me.